my dream girl....

I miss Alexa Carson

needs vs. wants

Alexa needs your help to destroy asteroids and secure Sector 7!

Alexa needs to pee sooooo badly. she's about to wet her pants and panties.

Alexa needs her shorts.

Alexa needs to load a cookie into my machine.

Alexa needs an experienced and gentle handler.

Alexa needs to start to operate more like a business.

Alexa needs a good competitor.

Alexa needs time to mature.

Alexa needs therapy. Or maybe her mother does.

Alexa needs to have an honest relationship with her girl or else it wont ever work out.

Alexa needs this night to be more, so guides him from harsh insistence to languid exploration and trust.

Alexa needs bigger boobs.

Alexa needs a kidney transplant!

Alexa needs to be thoroughly spanked.

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Alexa wants the fully-loaded black Infinity.

Alexa wants to use a ready-made 6-foot long fence.

Alexa wants to be a tool used by advertisers.

Alexa wants to ensure that no one else suffers her ordeal.

Alexa wants an Arabian Nights themed party and guess what she gets?

Alexa wants to do whatever brother is doing.

Alexa wants her initial to be first and that's what's really causing all the problems.

Alexa wants to be a perpetual college student when she grows up.

Alexa wants Evan to write the biography of her amazing life and soon introduces him to a world that really is too good to be true.

Alexa wants to cry from what tramma poor Helga has been through, she wants to run away, back into Joe Jonas' arms and take in the sent of his Prada coglone.



'NOUGH SAID!

take on the world and don't fall down

Ahhhhhh!


I was in the computer lab today and some one slipped me their number, I got off the bus someone yelled "yo, you've got nice legs girl, just sayin' " I nodded and smiled politely then walked away, or maybe said thanks too. He had a scar on his face and a baby blue velour sweat suit on. A little boy stared at me and followed me around the grocery store. My credit card got declined. I got embarrassed. Missed the bus at the light, pretended I wasn't trying to catch it and just kept walking. It was raining. walked along with someone else who missed the bus but didn't acknowledge each others misfortune.

Bummed that I wasted valuable go go go go go time and wasn't going to have tasty treats to eat, I thought about how I would buy wine for tomorrow. A guy was denied access to bus because he had a dog, his struggle made me want to cry. could have been his only way home. mean bus lady. I wanted to get off after him and say if he can't ride i wont, but i was tired and in a bad mood myself, after we had to wait looking at him sad sulk around she called a head honcho and told them not to let him on any bus. I shook my head.

i slipped four times today in the rain and it hurt,

Wondering about the time when Mimi skii'd, without moving? Remember my own time, Mimi at Forest River, MY time, accosting a girl about slapping me across the face, her slapping a twelve year old full-force, child abuse in the 21st century. Actually it was about 1978. Showed me the power of confidence or righteousness, or something. Not to fear majority or crowd, or something!
Now I'm grown. Been the only woman in a conference call of boy's club status quo! Boss asks" Aren't you scared?" I grew up with myMom, nothing scares me!! Wish my girls(K & A) the same confidence!

Made her Cry

Sitting chatting,making A cry , talking about early 2000's not thinking. Maybe because I had no one to talk to then, for me, even, not thinking. Apologizing... profusely, like blood, because when else do you use the word profusely??? My special secret connection, lefty, always lefty. She always chose the tomatoe head, at four, Little Feat swinging in the hammock, my girl, my wonder kind, my precious girl. Always to be mine!!

naked skates are so supreme'

do you know mimi told me the thing that she's always wanted to do is learn to roller skate and it terrifies her? check out that grace and the willingness to let it be.

It's not quite as weird I would say as the time when Mimi chased down an 8 year old at forest island and accosted her about stolen goggles or perhaps the time when she ski'd for two hours without moving simply by way of wind power.

the whole world is out of whack yet interconnected. I've been having a lot of moments lately where everything just makes sense or the people around me are just the people I need even connected to me in some strange way.

I realized I kind have a crush on naked run away boy, who wasn't wearing flannel but had nifty tattoos


it makes you question though, who doesn't she have a crush on?

I want really nifty tattoos and to run naked through lives saying "this is me, this whole body here in front of you is mine and it is beautiful", but while I do this I want little nifty tattoos, like one for sure that says O L D M A N, because really, that's who I am.


flannel flanking plaid plastered humans are taking over olympia and inspite of it all I am still grinning.

don’t stop till you drop, kerplop

So, I'm in Pillage Markup today, intent on buying supplies to do spring cleaning, now that off-season has found a niche and settled it's butt in to stay for five weeks while we wrestle mud and fugure out what to do before we have anything to complain about. So, 7th generation has called to me while buying cleaning supplies, a comely emerald cypress and fir bathroom cleaner. Home we go, after cleaning up our dog's poop with our poop bag on the way back from the store. A mere half a block. Today, the fine starts for off-leash, no bag!
Rubber glove, size eight I think, since my nails are now long. Else, what size rubber gloves do you wear?? Does anyone know this? Like a hat size? Bathroom, spraying non-toxic, biodegadable cleaner. Turn on fan, take a break. Am I an irresponsible republican because I use a paper towel, instead of a rag from the free-box? Waiting for the EMERALD CYPRESS AND FIR ($6.69) scent to waft. yet curiously it smells like piss! Four tries later, still the piss! Who knew? Return it for Lime-Away.
Thankfully, there are other things to take my mind...
Figure drawing classes and "Natural Step" with well-meaning architectural friends to occupy my time. Thank goodness my niece is such an artist!